Wednesday, 20 February 2008

Struggling But trying to keep quiet

Hi all,

Thank you for your really nice comments it makes me quite emotional when people say things that are nice about not nice things if you understand me ?

I have been struggling really badly but need to keep it quiet really so I have to be careful ! I would love to be really open and say OH MY GOD I've had enough but how ?

Responsibility is a big thing when it's balancing on your shoulders and if you don't stay upright everything falls !!!

I have hundreds of questions but one answer keeps coming in my head and it seems so easy and so easy to obtain but is that giving in (yes it is) is it selfish ?(oh my god yes) and what about everyone else will they be annoyed with me ! (yes yes yes).

Frustration is driving me nuts !!!!

Ta for letting me rant on and on I needed that I will leave you alone now perhaps have another go tomorrow !.

Please all take care

Jinny xxx

3 comments:

klahanie said...

Hello Jinny,
I want you to know that I consider you a very brave lady. I know how well you are thought of. You give out so much kindness and caring to others. I have great respect for you.
I know all about leading a 'double life'. We have to find a way of challenging those negative thoughts and urges. We have to find a positive distraction when we go back to that other world which causes so much pain.
Jinny, you know I am here for you. I hope you can find some comfort in knowing just how much you are valued. Warm, sincere wishes Klahanie.

Smallandsnappy said...

Hi Jinny,

I believe we are all capable of being 100%ers, but it is our 100% NO BODY ELSES!

Ultimately we only answer to ourselves and have to find our own answers. People who use this site say nice things because we really do appreciate it when someone writes honestly about their lives. No bull, we recognise honesty, it's that we applaud.

You are a brave person, who has a way of coping with her problems, you have struggled and you are here.

Thats all

Take care

Philip xx

TALKBANK Action Group said...

Hi Jinny

Welcome to mindbloggling and I'm very glad if you're finding the website of some comfort. To have lived with mental health issues for 26 years proves that you're a true survivor and you should be proud of that fact alone.

All the very best,

Shirley
Media Action Group for Mental Health